It’s Friday morning and I still have not heard from Dr. Wonderful. I’m not sure if he’s busy or just growing distant from me. I sent him a text a few days ago and haven’t heard a response. Is this the beginning of the end?
Around 10 am I receive a text from Dr. Soul mate turned Best friend or Dr. BFF. It was the sweetest text. It said, “The Best Lines ever said by a man…”
When I was born, A Woman was there to hold me… My Mother.
As I grew up as a child, a woman was there to care and play with me… My Sister.
I went to school; A Woman was there to help me learn… My Teacher.
I became depressed when I lost. A woman was there to offer a shoulder… My Girlfriend.
I needed compatibility, company and love, a woman was there for me… My Wife.
I became tough; a Woman was there to melt me… My Daughter.
When I will die, A Woman will be there to absorb me in… Motherland.
If you are a man value every woman… and if you are a woman, feel proud to be on.
Happy Women’s day
I’m not sure who wrote this but the words are so beautiful and touching. I feel honored that Dr. BFF shared this with me. It really brightened my day.
Previously in one of our texts Dr. BFF mentioned a friend of his who is also a lover. She is from South America. I can imagine she must be very beautiful. I asked if he was in love with her. He replied, “I’m not in love. She’s a friend with benefits and does not believe in love. It’s complicated.” I said, “I’m sorry she doesn’t believe in love but to each his own.”
Later I asked if he believed in love. He said he believes the word is misunderstood and always leads to trouble.
Maybe this belief system is why it didn’t work out between the two of us. When we first met we had great conversations through email and text. I was starting to fall for him. He’s charming with dry humor and smart as hell. Of course along the way my damn psychosis took over, landing me in the hospital and pretty much scared him away. I’m sure our last date with me vomiting all over the place didn’t help either.
I told him that I believe love is a state of being. I started feeling this love when I started hearing and seeing things. I felt as if I was one with the Universe and the Universe is Love. Or you can say God is love.
It wasn’t long after I sent this text that Dr. Wonderful called me. When I saw his name come across my phone I was so happy. I answered bashfully, wondering what he was going to say. Up until now we spoke on the phone every day and after our last conversation things changed.
Dr. Wonderful sounded just as grieved as I was. He was nervous that I was upset with him. I told him I could never be upset with him. I asked if he was coming by tomorrow; we usually spend Saturdays together. He said he had a lot going on and wouldn’t be able to make it.
My heart skipped a beat. “Is he slowly letting me go by brushing me off?” When we said good night I was more confused than before he called me.
I immediately sent him a text stating, “It was nice hearing your voice. I really missed you.” He replied, “I’ve just been so busy. I know you understand.” I answered, “I understand. Okay. Enjoy your weekend.” By this time my heart was starting to feel pain at his apparent emotional disconnect. After a few minutes he sent a text saying, “U too I am gonna miss u tomorrow.” My heart lifted. “Me too. U have my heart.” He replied, “I will take care of it the best I can.” Now I’m starting to realize he’s just as nervous as I am. I wanted to lighten things up for him. “I know u will darling. Don’t worry. I understand how things r and I’ll be fine. ” He says, “Now I feel better.”
Maybe I’m complicating things by falling in love with him. Maybe he’s feeling stronger feelings than he thought he would feel. All I know is he’s the love of my life and was honest by letting me know up front what he could give. Somehow I’m going to find a way to put the brakes on my feelings.
All is not lost. I started my day with Dr. BFF and it seems as if I’m ending my day with kind words from him as well.
He texted me that all sounds good about my thoughts on love. I asked him if he thinks I’m not grounded. He told me I’m fine just the way I am. What sweet words to say. I think he’s fine just the way he is too.
I feel really blessed to have the wonderful people in my life the Universe has sent me. I hope I’m giving to them as much as they are giving to me. They are really special.